Night to be sub

I'm stuck at work for another hour, but I already have plans to hook up with one of my fwb.  Thanks to a friend's suggestion, I am going to let my fwb take control tonight and I will be sub(missive).  I typically like being in control and enjoy being dominant.  But I will leave that to my fwb tonight.  I am going to get out all my restraints, cuffs, blindfolds, whips, and paddles and leave them on my coffee table for my fwb.  I am going to let him choose what he wants to do to me tonight.  He already texted me to tell me to wear a lacy bra, boyshorts, and heels. I will be sure to report back soon :)

My one month anniversary on blogspot is coming up on June 8th.  I told my new fwb about it and he said he is going to help me celebrate, so I have a good story to post.  He is thinking of renting a hotel room in Waikiki for us for the night.  I'm already thinking of all the trouble we could get into!  :)

TMI Tuesday

I jumped on the bandwagon and am participating in TMI Tuesday.  If you want to join, you can check out:
TMI Tuesday blog

I got this idea from:
my dear friend, Advizor
Check out his blog.  He is amazing!

1. What time did you go to bed last night and were you alone?

•  I went to bed a little after 2 am.  I hooked up with a fwb at his place and came home.  I don't let fwb sleep over very often.

2. If you could be given ANY gift what would it be?

•  I'm going big on this one...I want my own house.  I am so sick of renting, but in Hawaii, the housing prices are so high, so buying a place is out of the question right now.

 3. What was the last film that really moved/disturbed/thrilled you and why?

• I watched "The Human Centipede" on Netflix streaming (after a friend recommended it).  It was so gross and the acting is terrible.  And I heard they are making a sequel.  Yuck!

4. What is your favorite way to wake up and what is the first thing you do?

• Non-sexual answer:  I love just sleeping in, not setting my alarm, and waking up when my body wants me to . 
• Sexual answer:  I love waking up to kissing on my body or having my nipples licked. 
• Most mornings, the first thing I do is grab my cell phone and see if I have any text messages. 

 5. You’ve been granted an extra hour in the day, what are you going to do?
a. Sleep more
b. Extend a sexual interlude
c. Shop
d. Finally fit in that workout that you usually can’t make time for

•  This would depend on if I was in bed alone or not.  I'd say 90% of the time, I'd choose A.  But if I had a hot guy in my bed, I'd choose B.  C and D are not even options for me. 
  

3 Weeks, 21 Days, 504 Hours, etc

I wasn't going to write a post for Sunday, but it just occurred to me that the 29th is the 3 week mark of my humble blog!  Wow.  It's hard to believe that it's already been 3 weeks.  I have had the pleasure of meeting some amazing people, chatting/emailing and getting to know about my readers, and sharing my stories.  If you are a subscriber or a reader, thank you!  I didn't know how many people would read or even care about what I had to say and while my following is small, I appreciate each one of you!

I have been asked many times to post a picture of myself, but due to the professional nature of my job, I choose to stay anonymous.  Hawaii is a very small place and word gets around very quickly.  I'm quite sure if this blog was shown to my bosses, I would be fired!

I want to say THANK YOU! again to anyone and everyone who takes the time to read my blog.  I try my very best to respond to all emails in a timely matter. If you have any questions, comments, or would just like to chat, just email me at:  aghwb(at)yahoo(dot)com.   I hope everyone is having a wonderful Memorial Day weekend!  And thank you again for reading!  You guys are the best!  :)

Day 7 - Lust

Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.
Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.
Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.
Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.
Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.
Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.
Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets.

This is the tag I’m doing.  I’m on Day 7 today…Lust.  I'm not sure what "love secrets" are, so I'm going to do 7 sex confessions.  This should be fun :)

1. I have slept with a married man.  Before you get upset with me, hear me out.  I didn't know he was married when we slept together. This guy lied to me and said he was divorced.  I later found out this wasn't true when his wife called me and asked me why my number was on her husband's phone bill.  Luckily, I keep pretty much every email, IM, and text message.  I gladly forwarded the texts to her where he told me he was divorced.

2. I learned I could squirt 3 years ago.  Before then, I was convinced I didn't have a gspot.  But I had a fwb who insisted he could make any girl squirt and he put his fingers in me and made me squirt in minutes.  I've been thankful to him ever since.

3. I love sex toys!  I've owned rabbits, dildos, vibrators, straps on (that's a whole story in itself!), gags, restraints, blindfolds, and a sex swing.  I believe in spicing things up in the bedroom!

4. I watch porn for inspiration and technique.  I'm never arrogant about my sexual skills.  I think there's always more to learn and I get a lot of ideas from porn.  May as well learn from the professionals!

5. Having my nipples licked is my weakness.  I know every girl likes her clit licked.  But if it was between having my clit or nipples being licked, I'd choose my nipples every time.  It's the fastest way to get me horny and wet!

6. I love having sex in public!  I've done it in bathrooms, dressing rooms, hotel balconies, the beach, movie theater, in the car (love, love road head!), on the side of the freeway, and at a sporting event.

7. I once came (and squirted) 7x and passed out.  When I woke up, I was made to cum 3 more times and had to beg to have it stopped.  By then, my body was shaking and tingling.

Second Encounter

My new fwb is awesome!  We had our second encounter on Thursday.  He texted me when he was leaving work and told me he'd be over in an hour.  I asked him to wear his uniform, but he said he was going home to shower and change and then come over.  Bummer.

He had told me earlier in the week that he wanted me to wear some lacy boyshorts, so I put those on with just a baby blue tank top.  When he got to my house, I opened the door and he just stared for a few seconds.  I grabbed his shirt and pulled him in before my neighbors saw anything.  He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around him and we kissed.  He was grabbing onto my ass real tight and he smiled and told me how happy he was that I remembered the boyshorts.

He put me down and I went to my kitchen to get a drink of water.  He followed me and bent me over my counter and rubbed my ass.  He told me what a naughty girl I am.  I just giggled.  He started spanking me.  He told me he had to punish me for teasing him so much.  He spanked me a few more times and then turned me around and took off my tank top.  He licked my nipples then told me suck his cock.

I pushed him against my fridge and got onto my knees and pulled his cock out.  He was already really hard.  I looked up at him as I took each inch of his cock into my mouth.  I gagged a little and he patted my head and told me how much he loved hearing that.  I kept sucking him and gagged a few more times.  He would smile just a little every time I'd gag.  He told me to stand up and we went back to my living room.

He sat on my couch and bent me over his lap.  I thought he was going to spank me again, but instead he kissed me all over my ass and slipped off my panties.  He didn't say anything, so I just got up and sat on his cock.  I started to ride him and he grabbed onto my hips and pushed me harder down on him.  I was moaning and he had his head buried in my tits.  I whispered in his ear how good he felt in me and he told me was really close to cumming.  I slowed down a little and he grabbed my tits and licked my nipples.  I grabbed his face and I kissed him.  Then I looked into his blue eyes and told him I was going to make him cum so hard.

I started riding him really fast and he grabbed onto my hips again.  I told him I wanted him to fill my pussy with his cum and he exploded all in me.  He wrapped his arms around my waist and put his head against my chest.  After a few seconds, he looked at me and said that was the hardest he's ever cum.  That was all the thanks I needed!  I kissed his cheek and we went to my bathroom.  We got into my shower and I asked him if he was going to be up for having a Round 2.  He said "Fuck yeah!".   Have I mentioned just how awesome he is?  :)

Day 6 - Gluttony

Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.
Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.
Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.
Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.
Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.
Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.
Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets.

This is the tag I’m doing.  I’m on Day 6 today...Gluttony.

1. Love watching "Hawaii Five-0" (the new one).  Yes, I know from Hawaii and it's kind of cheesy, but Alex O'Loughlin is so gorgeous!

2. Skinny Cow ice cream!  Enough said.

3. Tabloid magazines

4. Kevin Smith and Tyler Perry movies

5. Sleeping/napping with just my panties on

6. Spending more than $50 on a bottle of perfume - it's worth it to smell good!

7. Cheap wing night Tuesdays at Buffalo Wild Wings!

Cuddling (tumblr question)

I got this question on my Tumblr and I thought I'd address it and add a little more detail than my original answer.  Here is how it was posted:

Anonymous: You don't mention cuddling in your stories. Do you ever do it?

Yes, I do…sometimes.  The honest answer is that I’m really not into cuddling with a fwb.  I do it if they initiate it, but if not, then I don’t.  If I had a bf, I would be trying to cuddle with him all the time though :)

My extra commentary:
The truth is that I've never been big on cuddling, even with a boyfriend.  I don't know why.  I've had guys tell me I think too much like a guy.  I guess that's somewhat true.  After an encounter with a fwb, I'm not thinking about cuddling.  I'm thinking about how long it will take him to be ready for Round 2, 3, and 4.   My new fwb is a cuddler and he does like it a lot.  I don't mind it, I just don't crave it and thus, don't initiate it.

With my last bf, we did cuddle at home when we would watch a DVD, which was nice.  He actually made me enjoy cuddling a lot more because he'd do little things like smell my hair, run his fingertips up and down my arms, or just playfully grab my tits.  And he would often turn cuddling into a game.  If I could get him hard without using my hands, I could get whatever I wanted in bed.  If I couldn't get him hard, he could get whatever he wanted.  I would usually grind against him, kiss him, or whisper dirty things while alternating ear kisses.  I won a lot!  lol

Day 5 - Greed

Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.
Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.
Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.
Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.
Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.
Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.
Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets.

This is the tag I’m doing.  I’m on Day 5 today...Greed.  I had a hard time writing this because I really am not into materialistic things.  I approached this as...what would I do if someone handed me a couple of million dollars...

1. Pay off all my parents' debts - I owe everything I have to them, so the first thing I'd do is to make sure they didn't have to worry about their debts.

2. One, just one, designer purse...and maybe the wallet too!  I mentioned this before and while I'm ok with using my cheap purse I got at a thrift store, I'd love to be sporting a LV!

3. A big, huge tv!  I have a moderate sized tv and it works fine.  But I'd love to have a huge tv that I can mount on my wall!

4. Make up, lots of it!  I am a girly girl and while I have a small collection of colors I use daily, I don't do anything crazy or creative.  I would love to go to Sephora and just buy everything!

5. Private chef - I can cook and cook for myself quite often.  But I'd love to come home from work and have a 3 course meal cooked for me already!  That would be the life!

6. A vacation - I don't have an exact location, but I'd love to just away from Hawaii for a bit and see some new things.

7. VS shopping spree - I was going to say clothes, but I love the clothes I already own.  But you can never have enough Victoria Secret bras, panties, lingerie or body sprays!  I'd buy 2 of everything!

Threesome offer

I've been hooking up with one of my fwb, on and off, for 3 years.  We had plans to meet up earlier this week and he had texted me to ask if I'd be up for a threesome with a guy he worked with.  I told him I hadn't had a threesome in awhile so I'd be consider it if I was attracted to his friend.  He told me his friend was my "type", so I agreed.

I went to my fwb's house and met his friend.  He was gorgeous.  I was really looking forward to this threesome.  His friend was a little shy and he told me he had never done a threesome nor had he even been with an asian girl.  I told him to just relax and we would all have fun.  We all sat on the couch and I took turns kissing them and they were touching and rubbing me all over.  I took off my shirt and bra and they each took a nipple in their mouths.  I reached down to their cocks and started rubbing. I grabbed their hands and we went to the bedroom.

We all got naked and I got on my knees and took turns sucking their cocks. My fwb grabbed me and threw me on the bed and he started licking my clit.  His friend sat on my chest and made me suck his cock.  My fwb started fingering my gspot too and I could tell I was about to cum.  I squirted all over his face.  He licked me clean and his friend wanted to try to make me squirt.  They traded places and soon, his friend had me squirting too.

My fwb lay on the bed and told me to ride him.  At the same time, I was sucking his friend's cock.  I looked at him and asked him if he was comfortable with doing a dp.  He said yes.  So he got behind me and fucked my ass.  We were all moaning.  Before I knew it, his friend came all in my ass.  He apologized and I told him not to worry.  My fwb told me he wanted to fuck my ass too.  He made me bend over the bed and he fucked my ass.  He spanked me a few times and told me I was a bad girl.  He grabbed onto my hips and he came.  He ripped off the condom and made me lick his cock clean.  I sucked every last drop of cum out of him and we laid on the bed.  I was about to pass out, when I felt fingers in me again.  My fwb told me I had to squirt for him one last time, so he fingered me and I came everywhere.  His friend heard me screaming and came back in the room and licked me clean.  I was so exhausted...but it was worth it.  It was a great night!

Day 4 - Sloth

Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.
Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.
Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.
Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.
Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.
Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.
Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets.

This is the tag I’m doing.  I’m on Day 4 today...Sloth.

1. Writing to my deployed friends - I have 3 really good friends who are deployed.  I currently write to each of them once a week.  I really should be writing them at least twice a week. It makes me feel like a bad friend that I don't make more time to do this.

2. Remove my make up at the end of the day - This has been a bad habit since college.  I come home from work exhausted and I often fall asleep on my couch and wake up with my make up still on!

3. Take my vitamins

4. Check/reply to emails - I do emails a lot at work so when I get home, I often don't even turn on my computer!

5. Eat healthy - I definitely don't eat enough fruits and veggies.

6. Fold/put away laundry - My laundry often stays in the drawer for days!  lol

7. Car maintenance - I don't do my oil check when I'm supposed to.  I probably need new tires.  And my windshield wiper solution has been out for months!

Another tumblr question

Anonymous: What is your advice for having friends with benefits?

The best advice I can give you is to be clear about your intentions and set the ground rules right away.  I never become fwb with a guy whom I have real feelings for.  That’s just asking for trouble.  If your instincts tell you that your potential fwb wants more, it’s probably not a good idea to get involved.  After that, set ground rules.  Can you have other fwb?  What happens if you start dating someone?  Are you going to hang out together in public?  If you’re both clear on the expectations, there wouldn’t be any misunderstandings or drama.  Then you can just enjoy each other and have lots of hot sex!

First encounter

(Thankfully, we had a better first encounter than these 2 did!)

This is a few days late.  Sorry.  I had my first encounter with my new fwb.  He came over to my place on Sunday and he looked gorgeous!  He grabbed me right away and started kissing me.  I asked him if he was  ready to do this and he said yes.  I had planned to let him take the lead, but he didn't seem like he was going to make a move, so I reached for his pants and started to undo his belt.  He gave me a shy smile as I unzipped his pants.

I got on my knees and sucked his cock.  He immediately got hard and started moaning.  I was loving every minute of sucking his cock.  He was a good size, about 7 inches and thick.  I kept thinking how good he was going to feel inside of me.  I was looking up at him as I was working his cock and he told me to get up.  I got to my feet and he swooped me up and carried me to the bed.

I wasn't sure what position he wanted to do, so I just took off my clothes and bent over the bed.  He grabbed my hips and he whispered in my ear that he was going to fuck my brains out.  He felt so good inside of me.  His cock filled me up and hit the right spots.  He had me moaning right away.  He reached over and grabbed my hair and pulled it.  I loved that he did that without me asking.  I was just about to tell him I wanted to ride him, when he grabbed my hips really tight and told me he was about to cum.  He grunted and came all in me.  He fell onto my back and we both collapsed onto my bed.

For a first encounter, I'd say it went pretty well.  I'd like for him to come out of his shell a little more, but I'm sure that will happen with time. He told me he's free to come by after work on Thursday.  I can't wait!

Day 3 - Wrath

Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.
Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.
Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.
Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.
Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.
Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.
Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets.

This is the tag I’m doing.  I’m on Day 3 today…Wrath.

1. Shitty drivers - If you don't know how to use your turn signal or how to merge, get off the road!

2. Liars - Enough said.

3. People who think it's ok to swear and yell at customer service people, not because of bad service, but because they can't get their way.  People like this make me sick!

4. When people write "FIRST" on any YouTube video.  That is beyond annoying.

5. When it rains right after I washed my car

6. When a guy doesn't say "I'm cumming".  Cmon, the least you can do is warn me!

7. Bad kissers.  No matter how good looking the guy is, this is a deal breaker!

Day 2 - Envy

Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.
Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.
Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.
Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.
Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.
Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.
Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets.

This is the tag I’m doing.  I’m on Day 2 today…Envy. This is list is going to be very superficial.  I'm very happy with my life, but if I had to say things I wish I had, here's what I would say.

1. I wish I could afford just one designer purse.  I'd love a  LV speedy, but with practical things like rent and bills, I just can't justify spending the money on a purse!

2. I envy girls who have a natural fashion sense.  I have friends who look at a cute skirt and immediately know what type of shirt to wear with it and what color.  I'm usually clueless.  A friend also told me you're not supposed to wear blue and black together.  I had no idea!

3. I wish I were more adventurous with makeup.  I have a neutral look and a dark smokey eye that I can do and that's it.  I see blue, pink, and green eye shadows and I have no idea what to do with them!

4. I'm envious of people with perfect eyesight!  I've worn glasses or contacts since high school and it's a pain.  I know I can get laser eye surgery, so maybe I'll have to save for that.

5. I'm envious of people (male and female) who are comfortable eating alone in restaurants or seeing movies by themselves.  I consider myself fairly independent, but I just can't bring myself to do those 2 things.  If I don't have a friend to eat dinner with and I really want food from a restaurant, I just get take out.  And I rather just wait for the DVD if I can't find a friend to see a movie with.

6. I wish I had better luck.  I have friends who win drawings, contests, free trips, raffles, etc.  I have never won!  I went to a casino with a friend and I played $50 on a slot machine and lost it.  She put in $20 on the same machine after I was done and won $1000 on her first spin!

7. I envy people who truly enjoy working out.  I have friends who love running.  I even have friends who are marathon runners.  They love it!  They talk about running all the time.  Me?  I run because I don't want to be overweight.  But if I could skip the running and still be skinny, I'd never run again!  lol

Question from my tumblr

Here's a question I got to my tumblr blog:

Anonymous: I'm a white male and there is an asian girl I have a crush on in school. My parents wouldn't be happy if they knew I was dating an asian girl. What is your advice?

I’ve actually encountered this situation.  I’ve had boyfriends whose parents didn’t like me simply because I was Asian.  It didn’t matter how much I loved their son or how well I treated him.  Is there a reason your parents wouldn’t like you dating an Asian girl?  If you feel there is a zero possibility of them changing how they feel, you need to decide if this girl is worth possibly losing the relationship you have with your parents.  I’m always happy to hear about white guys who like Asian girls, so I would say go for it! I wish you the best!

Day 1 - Pride

Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.
Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.
Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.
Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.
Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.
Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.
Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets.

This is the tag I'm doing.  I'm on Day 1 today...Pride.  I don't know if this is how it's supposed to be done for Pride, but rather than write great things about myself, I am going to write about why I think my life is so great!

1. I have a wonderful family.  I didn't grow up rich or in a nice house or have a car when I turned 16, but I had loving parents who were strict when they had to be but gave me freedom and trusted me to do the right thing.

2. I grew up and live in Hawaii!  I didn't appreciate this much when I was growing up, but now as an adult, I am thankful.  Some people dream their whole life of coming here and this is my home.

3. I have wonderful friends.  I have both male and female friends that I trust and have been there for me through all the good and shitty times.  They cheer me up when I need it and listen when I need a shoulder to cry on.

4. I have fwb who I can count on.  This is harder to find than most people think.  I have sexy, drama-free, dependable fwbs who know how to fuck me like I like to be fucked.

5. I have a job I actually enjoy. The economy is bad.  So many people hate their job.  I'm lucky to have a job I look forward to going to each day, make decent money, and cool co-workers.

6. I'm active.  I don't stay at home, if I don't have to.  I like to get out and do something.  If no one wants to go hiking with me, I just go by myself.

7. I have a positive attitude.  I like to look at the upside of things.  I like to encourage others (and myself).  I like to try, even if something seems impossible.  I find that living my life this way is so much healthier than being negative and complaining all the time.  Pro-active is the way to go!

7 Deadly Sins tag

 
TAG!!!  I'm going to start doing this tomorrow.  Seems like it will be fun! 

Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.
Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.
Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.
Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.
Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.
Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.
Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets.

The meeting

 (No, this is NOT a picture of me and Josh.  I was looking for a picture of a "Starbucks coffee date" and stumbled upon this)

I had coffee with my new potential fwb and it was a lot of fun!  He was even more handsome in person than he was in his pictures.  And I felt the chemistry between us immediately.  We sat outside of Starbucks and talked for a couple of hours.  He made me laugh, which was a very good thing.  He suggested we hang out again and I asked him if he wanted to come back to my place and watch a movie or something.  And I gave him a little wink.  lol

We went back to my place and we watched some Law and Order reruns that were on tv.  He grabbed my hand and kissed me.  He was a really good kisser.  I suggested we get naked and he said no.  He said we will get to that part eventually.  We cuddled on my couch and watched the rest of the episode.  He asked me if he could stay over and I said yes.  But surprisingly, we didn't have sex.  We stayed in my bed and talked.

When he left in the morning, he asked me if I still was considering being fwb with him and I said YES!  He flashed me a smile and gave me a hug and left.  He texted me later in the day to say that we should meet up again on Sunday to do our fwb thing.  I can't wait!

So far, so good

I texted the guy my former fwb set me up with.  It was a good conversation.  We texted for about 2 hours.  I got to know him a bit and I liked how easy he was to talk to.  He was also very funny, which was a plus.  We exchanged a few pictures and he was very handsome!  We discussed being friends first and seeing how that goes and possibly extending it to fwb.  We have plans to meet up tonight for some coffee and then a movie.  If things go well, I may have a new fwb!  Keep your fingers crossed for me!

I couldn't have explained it any better!

This excerpt is from:   http://www.asiancemagazine.com/content/white-boy-speaks-dating-asian-women

The man speaking his opinion is Jay Spark.

"One of my earliest memories of feeling attraction to a girl was in high school. I was on the bus. An Asian girl from the high school across the street got on. She wasn't the first Asian girl I had seen, but it felt like the whole rest of the world disappeared, like I witnessed beauty for the first time. I had never been so attracted to someone before. I don't think I ever saw her again. I remember having a vague sense her being Asian had something to do with my attraction, but I dismissed that sense at the time, feeling it was racist.
 
For many years, I noticed that preference for Asians, but kept dismissing it. I fell in love with a white girl, who was for a few years everything to me. She is still a great friend. Later, in college, people who noticed my preference joked about it, generally making me feel embarrassed and ashamed. Eventually I came to accept it. I got over the feeling of racism when I realized the preference wasn't a judgment. It was just whom I was attracted to. My preference feels no more racist than being interested in women feels sexist.
 
I never felt my preference was a choice. People act like I have a choice in the matter. I have no sense that I do. As best I can tell I was born this way. People have a hard time accepting that I did not choose this preference. I didn't choose to be heterosexual either, but I am, and no one asks why I choose women over men or calls me sexist. The internal feeling is the same.  The attraction is purely physical, for better or worse."

Friends helping friends :)

Remember how I said I lost a fwb because he started dating someone?  Well he texted me last night to say that he had a way to make it up to me...he found me a possible new fwb!  How awesome is he??  I asked him what this mystery man was like and he said he was 22, white, tall (6'1"), blonde hair, blue eyes, boy next door look, and in the military.  He was funny, liked to go out, and made a lot of jokes.  He apparently liked asian girls but had had a hard time making friends or even hooking up with one here in Hawaii.  He asked me if I'd be interested in talking to him to see if we clicked and of course I said yes!  I have his number and I plan on texting him tomorrow.  I hope we get along well.  Maybe we could even meet up this weekend!

Dream (revisited)

 Just a little update...I had texted my fwb to ask him to come back to my house when he was done working.  He didn't ask why, so I didn't tell him about the dream I had.  He came over and looked so hot in his uniform!  He first thought that something was wrong.  I told him I was fine and asked if he wanted to take a shower since he had been working for the last 12 hours.  He said yes and I followed him in there.

He was acting kinda nervous at first, which surprised me.  I turned on the water and I washed his hair.  I massaged his scalp and he loved that!  He started to grab for my tits and I slapped his hand away.  I washed his body from head to toe and got on my knees to scrub his feet for him.  I looked up at him and he was whispering for me to stand up.  I stood up and he grabbed me and kissed me.  His hands wandered to my tits and eventually fingering my clit.

I got on my knees and started sucking his cock.  He was moaning and started to shake a little.  I grabbed onto the back of his ass and pulled him deep in my throat.  He closed his eyes and let out a huge moan.  He grabbed my arm and lifted me up and pushed me against the wall.  I know it's unromantic, but I told him he needed to wear a condom. He begged me to just let him pull out and I said no.

So we washed off, wiped our bodies, then he bent me over my bathroom counter and fucked me.  He kept looking into the mirror and watching my expressions.  He came really hard in me and collapsed on my back.  I just giggled and he asked me what was so funny.  He was still inside me when I told him about my dream.  He laughed and told me that he was glad I had the dream. We ended up taking a short nap before having a round 2 :)

Time to move on

 
This kind of stuff is bound to happen.  One of my fwb told me today that he started dating someone and we can't hook up anymore :(   I was bummed for myself, but I'm happy for him because he's a nice guy and he seems like he found himself a real nice girl (and bonus, she's asian!)   That's the thing with fwb.  You just never know when you'll lose one.  I don't require my fwb to tell me if they are going on dates or if they have other fwb.  I just don't think it's necessary.  So I often am shocked when stuff like this happens.  But that just means I need to keep my eyes out for the next potential fwb!  lol

Sexual Dreams...after sex!

Last night, I had a quickie with my fwb and fell asleep.  I woke up and the first thing that crossed my mind was that I had had a sex dream!  I could remember it so vividly.  It was almost like a continuation to the sex I had just had.  It was weird because I noticed recently that I've been getting those type of dreams a lot more.

My quickie was nothing special.  My fwb had stopped by on his way to work.  He bent me over my kitchen counter, moved my panties aside, and fucked my brains out.  Then he made me lick him clean and he left.

In my dream, he and I went into the shower and took turns washing each other's bodies.  He washed my long hair for me and I played with his cock.  Then when we were all clean, I got on my knees and sucked him, all while the water was running down our bodies.  He pushed me against the shower wall and started fucking me.  And that's when I woke up.

I texted my fwb while he was at work and asked him to stop by later today.  I didn't tell him about my dream.  I figured I would just act it out when I see him!  I bet it will be a lot of fun!

What is fwb?

 I got an email asking me what "fwb" was.  I'm sorry that I didn't explain this before.  I guess I mistakenly thought everyone knew what it was.  lol.  FWB is Friends With Benefits.  Now I know everyone has their own definition of exactly what that is, so I will tell you mine.

If a guy is one of my fwb, that means we have sex, but he's also cool enough that we can hang out and do normal friend things, like go to the movies or have dinner.  But to be clear, we are not dating and I do not see a future with him.  I expect my fwb to be drama-free and single.  I am not a homewrecker.  And I do not put up with drama.  If my fwb starts to cause drama in my life, I cut him off.  The whole purpose of a fwb is to get sexual satisfaction, without all the other crap.

At any given time, I might have 5+ fwb.  It's not because I'm having sex every night with a different guy.  I just have to have options and backup plans.  They have lives too!  If I'm horny on a Thursday night, one might be working or already have plans.  So I just go down the list and see who is free.  I rather have too many options, than not enough!

The Power of Boyshorts!

 Within the last year or so, I've noticed that guys' preference in panties have changed.  I remember when all guys used to talk about was thongs (which I personally never liked wearing).  Now it seems like guys really like boyshorts.  I was with my fwb last night and when he saw that I was wearing boyshorts, he grabbed me and threw me on the bed.  I'd never seen him act so aggressive before.  He put me on my stomach and grabbed my ass and spanked me.  I love being spanked, so it turned me on.  After a bit, he lay on my back and told me how hot I looked in boyshorts.

I'll be honest, I've heard guys say this before.  But I never thought much of it.  I was at Victoria Secret a couple of weeks ago and the lacy boyshorts were on sale, so I picked some up.  I didn't realize how great of a decision that would end up being.

After my fwb and I fucked our brains out, he asked me to put the boyshorts back on.  He begged me to wear boyshorts from now on.  I told him I could do that.  Then he playfully slapped my ass again and fell asleep.

Easy Way To Make Me Smile

I've been having a somewhat bad week and was happy when one of my friends hit me up to have dinner Thursday night.  When I met up with him, I went to give him a hug and he pulled out a bouquet of flowers from behind his back!  Awww, that was so sweet of him.  He said he knew I was having a rough week and wanted to cheer me up.  I instantly smiled when I saw the flowers.  I gave him a big hug!

Guys don't realize how just a small gesture like that can make a girl smile.  My friend said it wasn't a big deal because the flowers cost him $5, but to me, it made a big difference.  I'm very thankful to have thoughtful friends who make me smile :)

Single-phobia?

This post isn't about me.  It's about some of the friends I have.  Why are people so afraid to be single?  I just don't get it. Why would you want to spend time with the wrong person just so you can put on Facebook that you're "In A Relationship"?  I have to listen to my friends (males and females) tell me how unhappy they are with their partner, but they don't want to break up because they don't want to be single.  And then when the relationship does end, they are scrambling to find a new partner.  It's frustrating to see this vicious circle, but what can I do right?

The Most Asked Question...

Last night, I hung out with a friend who just got back from deployment.  It's the first time I've seen him in over a year, so I was happy to spend time with him.  One of the things he asked me was, "Why are you still single?"   Ahhh, the most asked question.

I just got out of a relationship about 6 months ago.  It did not end well.  And while I believe in taking chances and not having baggage, I am not ready to be in another relationship.  While some people are relationship-whores, I like being single.  I like having my freedom.  I like not having to answer to someone when I want to see my friends, stay out late, and sleep in.

I really have not made any attempts to date.  I have spent the last 6 months bettering myself, making new friends, and enjoying my life.  I have met some great people and was lucky enough to reconnect with some of my former fwb whom I used to hook up with before I was in a relationship.

I do look forward to the day that I meet someone so amazing that I will want to be in a relationship again.  But until then, I will be happy with my single life and enjoy all that it has to offer  :)

Just Friends

 
Yes, I believe that men and women can be just friends.  I know some people will beg to differ, but I can just speak from my experiences.  I have friends whom I've known for 5+ years and we have never hooked up, kissed, or held hands.  One of my good friends is white, but I am not attracted to him.  When I tell people this, they find it hard to believe me.  Their common response is, "...but don't you like white guys?"  Yes, I do.  But not all white guys.  I still need the attraction.  My friend is tall, fit, has blue eyes, and a great smile.  Would most people assume I'm attracted to him?  Yes, probably.  I see girls checking him out every time we hang out.  And yes, I know he's handsome.  But still, when I see him, I think of him as a brother, not a lover.

I am very thankful for the friends I have.  This particular friend has been there for me thru all the good and bad moments in my life.  He has never caused me any drama.  I told him that if only we had that sexual chemistry, we would probably be dating and someday married.  If only life were that easy!

Top Down

I got a text from one of my FWB and he asked if we could meet up after he finished work.  He is an officer in the Army and I knew he would be wearing his uniform, so of course I said yes!  He told me he had something planned, so to just be ready and he would pick me up.  He got to my house around 7:15 pm and was driving his Mustang convertible...with the top down!  He looked so good in his uniform!  I got into the car, he grabbed me and started kissing me.  He put my hand on his cock and asked me if I was up for a ride.  I said sure.

He started to drive and noticed him reaching down to his cock.  He pulled apart the Velcro on his uniform and asked me if I was ready for my ride.  I looked at him and he was serious.  He wanted me to ride him while he drove...and with his car's top down!   I was up for it, so I straddled him and grinded him real slow.  Then I started to ride him.  It was so crazy to see cars passing us by, all while he's inside me.  I grabbed onto him and asked him if he wanted to cum while driving or if he wanted to pull over to the side.  He said to just keep riding him.  So I did and he came in no time.  The funny thing is as he was cumming, he pretty much floored the car and I had to slap his thigh to get him to let off the gas.  How bad would it have been if he crashed into a car?  How would we explain the position we were in?  lol

How Is It Not Racist? (email response)

 
I got an email from someone asking me "Why do you think you're not racist, when you so clearly state that you like white boys?" And here's my answer...I never said I only like white boys.  It's about attraction.  When I wake up in the morning, I know I like men.  I don't question if I like women instead.  It's just how I feel inside.  I know my attraction is to men.  It's the same for white boys.  I see a group of guys and I'm typically attracted to the white guy.  But I have had crushes and dated other races.

In high school, my boyfriend was a mix of Filipino and Japanese.  In college, my boyfriend was Mexican, Filipino, and Chinese.  I have since dated a Hispanic and African American guy.  But the majority have been white.

I am open minded and if I saw a guy I was attracted to and wanted to get to know better, I wouldn't care what ethnic background he was.  I'd be interested in getting to know more about him and what kind of person he is.  Attraction and chemistry is hard to predict, so I believe in going with my gut and seeing where it leads me.  And if he happens to have blue eyes, that'd be nice :)

Random Text

I woke up this morning to a random text from a guy I used to hook up with a year ago.  It said "I miss being inside your tight asian pussy".  Damn.  That made me miss him being inside me.  He was by far the most gorgeous FWB I have ever had.  Tall, rugged good look, country boy, southern accent, and always had on a cowboy hat and cowboy boots.  Ahhhh, I miss him.  Too bad he got out of the military and went back to his home state.  :(

There's White Boys In Hawaii??

 
This is a question I often hear, "There's white boys in Hawaii?"  And the answer is YES!  One of the best things about this island is that we have a base for every branch of the military.  So not only are there a lot of white guys, there are almost all in shape, young, and active!  I feel like I get my choice from the best of the best here.  A lot of the guys I meet grew up in a place where there were very few, if any, Asian people.  Being in Hawaii exposes them to a whole new culture and that often leads to their curiosity of dating an Asian girl.  I have had many guys tell me they have always wanted to date an Asian girl, but never knew any or had an opportunities.  Finding a white boy to date or have fun with isn't that hard here.  It's actually a lot of fun!

Hottie Waiter

 
I was at dinner last night and my waiter was delicious!  I immediately noticed his blue eyes.  I almost forgot what I wanted to order when he looked at me.  I’m a dork.  lol.  He was tall, probably 6’2”, blonde hair, and a nice smile.  I started to feel like I didn’t want to eat my food around him, but my hunger got the best of me.  He was so handsome and definitely made my night!

How It All Started!

 
I was 15, sitting in class and bored.  My teacher had said we had a new student, but I didn’t think much of it.  Then HE walked in…tall, blonde, blue eyes, and a southern accent.  He looked nothing like the other 2000 students in my predominantly Asian high school.  I remember staring at him and thinking he looked like he walked out of an A&F catalog.  I had a crush on him immediately and thus, my white boy attraction had begun :)